Ashes to Ashes

Ashes to Ashes

The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible. 

 Ashes to ashes' derives from the English Burial Service. The text of that service is adapted from the Biblical text, Genesis 3:19 (King James Version): In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return.

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We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.

Ring-a-ring o' roses

Ring-a-ring o' roses

A pocket full of posies

A pocket full of posies

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A-tishoo! A-tishoo!

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We all fall down

We all fall down

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Cows in the meadows eating buttercups

A-tishoo! A-tishoo!

A-tishoo! A-tishoo!

We all jump up.

We all jump up.

But we all fall down under pressure 

But we all fall down under pressure 

Thats alright though, atleast you tried. 

Thats alright though, atleast you tried. 

And that my friends is life.  

And that my friends is life.  

Don't ever give up

Don't ever give up

For you are so close. 

For you are so close. 

You will attain your gold as it is already done.  

You will attain your gold as it is already done.  

The World is Ours

The World is Ours

  It is defined as the part of the prefrontal cortex that receives projections from the magnocellular, medial nucleus of the mediodorsal thalamus, and is thought to represent emotion and reward in decision making.[4] It gets its name from its position immediately above the orbitsin which the eyes are located. Considerable individual variability has been found in the OFC of both humans and non-human primates.[citation needed] A related area is found in rodents.

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Red Moon Rising. Reading, PA. 

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Under Construction

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There was a time when I was alone

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Nowhere to go and no place to call home

My only friend was the man in the moon

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And even sometimes he would go away, too

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He came to me with the sweetest smile

Told me he wanted to talk for awhile

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Then one night, as I closed my eyes

I saw a shadow flying high

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He said, "Peter Pan, that's what they call me

I promise that you'll never be lonely, " and ever since that day

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I am a lost boy from Neverland

Usually hanging out with Peter Pan

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And when we're bored we play in the woods

Always on the run from Captain Hook

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 "Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me

Away from all of reality

Neverland is home to lost boys like me

Neverland is home to lost boys like me

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And lost boys like me are FREE

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He sprinkled… I am a traveler of both time and space. Some day you will be too.

Some call it the search for the Holy grail. You know it that love is the awnser.  Yes is the awnser and you know that for sure. Yes is surrender. You gotta let it go. Raising the spirit of peace and love.

Only You

Only You

For the record. The words below were written by me over two years ago when I was living in NYC.  

Funny as within days I will be receiving my acceptance letter from Penn State University studying quantum physics and biomolecular engineering. To all the naysayers and gossippers, watch me fly off on my golden eagle. As forward motion is a constant. Tortoises and rabbits are cyclical. Imagine a corkscrew drilling through space. In regards to the debate of who will win between the tortoise and rabbit the former not the latter will be the victor. The tortoise watches and learns over the eons of mistakes made by the rabbits. The rabbits are essentially a test run simulation of all possibilities to better aggregate the data in order to best assimilate all cultures as one. Just because some people aren't open to growth doesn't mean we havent held together and rode the waves and many storms over the eons. We are here as we always have been and we are stronger than ever. This is fact.

 

A Photographer's Reality Circa 2015 NYC 

If objective reality is only our individual perception of sensory stimulus created within our consciousness and all matter according to quantum physics may not actually exist, if all atoms are proven to be constantly communicating as one on levels we may not even understand yet, then isn't it a very real possibility that we all are just sharing a dream?

Maybe the ideology that change on a global scale starts with one has some truth in it. Maybe when almost all religions describe one god omnipotent in everything they were onto something. Maybe when I say I believe and from a young age sensed this ethereal force which is both you and I at the same time I am not crazy.

I feel the camera to me is merely an extension or tool to what I see in my own perceived daily reality. So going by the logic in the last paragraph, in essence when I create a photograph of something I see or feel then I am only creating a perceived physical object as an image to share within our combined reality. This is beautiful in itself. My photographs are a window to my soul, a physical recreation of my unique perception of our universe. The best part is I get to share this beauty and happiness I see every waking hour with other human beings or my co-dreamers in the form of an image.

Are you still following me? It gets better! If I can materialize my dreams and or perceptions into an image within a dream then I certainly can create my own reality around me within the confines and laws of the shared dream. Sayings like “If you can dream it, you can do it!” or “Mind over matter.” finally have basis in this realization. Through passion, dreams and hard work the world is ours to sculpt. Following this logic the true camera and or eye exists within my consciousness. The camera is merely a tool to share my perception or dream with others. One need not be a photographer to create their own reality but they must be open and receptive to all possibilities within the world and believe that they are able to become whatever they want within the confines of the shared perception.

As a great friend and mentor of mine Dale Scott Marion once said and which I have tattooed up my right side “There is no uncertainty in success, if there is you can be certain it won’t be a success.” As of recent I approach every instance of life with a calculated belief that I will succeed. Even if I know there is a high probability that I will fail I go into it believing I am the best.

Many times I have failed, many times for years on end. I can’t even count how many new beginnings I have because I have one every day. The only constant in my life has been the belief that I will succeed and with that belief I have repeatedly picked myself up with grace.

Whatever you do in life, do it with a conviction and belief in yourself that you are capable of everything because you are everything and everything is you.

I don’t know exactly why I am here on this earth but I know for sure I am here and receptive to the plans of the universe. I am not perfect by any means but I am allowing myself to assess my actions and thoughts on a daily basis and grow as an individual. It is my belief that if we as individuals start small changing for the better we can all change the energy of this dream from negative to positive. Maybe just maybe we can transcend as a species into the next logical evolutionary step and what I believe as our original home, pure energy and thought.

I am a believer that eventually the usage of a body will become null and void in our world. We have evolved to the most amazing physical beings….I mean have you ever really thought about how intricate your own body is, within every cell a universe? Unfortunately the body like many perceived physical objects has flaws. In my eyes the next logical step in evolution would be to break free of a body and exist purely as consciousness. I will leave that thought for another day though. 

 

 

 

Nepotism

Nepotism

 "Nepotism " a short abstract film. Edited entirely on an iPad Pro while living out of my car. Music by Moby http://moby.com/la1/ All views expressed do not reflect any factual events or persons and are strictly my artistic expression and interpretation on local and global issues. Feat. the talent of Lexi Jade

 "Nepotism" is the word of the day for a large part of the local and global art community. You all know who is propagating it and your mind games will only hurt yourself in the end when you realize your entire life was built upon finding solace in false beliefs in your self contstructed egotistical prisons and rampant mutual masturbation with other individuals who also fear change. I find it so amusing when certain group of cowardice individuals band together to form smear campaigns against other artists they perceive as a threat. You all will never attain what I or others who are truly free have and furthermore will continue to attain through unrelenting perseverance and cunning ingenuity through the ebb and flow of life. Unfortunately that makes you feel inferior on levels you can't even begin to comprehend. For we are the riders of the Storm and we flow and are the energy of creation. Maybe some day, rather then picking us select few apart you can humble yourselves and learn from us just like we allowed ourselves to learn from the masters before us. At this point it's just sad really and time and light will expose all your fallacies and resistance to change. The more you squirm, the faster the quick sand will devour you. You can't say we didn't try to warn you that assimilation will continue to progress whether you like it or not. God bless and Godspeed to all.

Like a Rolling Stone

Like a Rolling Stone

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Once upon a time you dressed so fine.

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Threw the bums a dime in your prime, didn't you?

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People call say 'beware doll, you're bound to fall'
You thought they were all kidding you
You used to laugh about
Everybody that was hanging out

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Now you don't talk so loud

Now you don't seem so proud

About having to be scrounging your next meal.

How does it feel, how does it feel?

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 To be without a home

Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone

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Ahh you've gone to the finest schools, alright Miss Lonely

Nobody's ever taught you how to live out on the street

And now you're gonna have to get used to it
You say you never compromise

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With the mystery tramp, but now you realize

He's not selling any alibis


As you stare into the vacuum of his eyes

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You used to ride on a chrome horse with your diplomat
Who carried on his shoulder a Siamese cat
Ain't it hard when you discovered that

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He really wasn't where it's at.

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Ahh princess on a steeple

They're all drinking, thinking that they've got it made

 Exchanging all precious gifts

But you better take your diamond ring, you better pawn it babe
You used to be so amused
At Napoleon in rags and the language that he used
Go to him he calls you, you can't refuse
When you ain't got nothing, you got nothing to lose

You're invisible now, you've got no secrets to conceal.

Around Here

She walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land

Just like she's walking on a wire in the circus

She knows she's just a little misunderstood

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Round here we're carving out our names

Round here we all look the same

We sacrifice like lambs 

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Round here we're never sent to bed early

And nobody makes us wait

Round here we stay up very, very, very, very late

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Sleeping children better run like the wind out of the lightning dream

Mama's little baby better get herself in out of the lightning

She says, "It's only in my head."

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I can't see nothin', nothin', round here.

Oh, man, I said, "I'm under the gun..."

Round here.

And I can't see nothin', nothin'.

Round here.

 

I AM NOT A ROBOT.

Better to be hated than loved loved loved for what your not.

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 You're vulnerable, you're vulnerable  

You are not a robot. 

  
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But you are so MAGNETIC, you pick up all the pins.

Don't be so pathetic, just open up and SING!

Can you teach me how to feel real?

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GUESS WHAT? I AM NOT A ROBOT!

Welcome to the Jungle.

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 Please play this song while you read this blog for the best experience.

As-Salaam Alaikum, al-Masih qam! Bi-l-haqiqa qam!

I see the way you move

It's fluid

Be here by my side

Got nothing to hide

I know that you're hurting

I see the tears behind those eyes

And I can't wipe them clear

Your love is like gold to me

But you hold me closer to the light

You will not find a bullet inside

Unless you magnify

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 But you throw me into the deep end

Expect me to know how to swim

And I put my faith inside my hands

Cause I will be just fine

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Welcome to the jungle

Are you gonna dance with me

Well hold on... 

Suit and tie with the black jeans on

And I’m paralyzed

Cos' I think you got something like the biggest soul I’ve ever seen

And I think you’re the one

You got to close your eyes and see

Well hold on.

You know,  

That storm the other night was intense. I weathered it in a tent on the highest point around Blue Marsh lakes Pennsylvania. I woke up at exactly 3:14 am and I remember because I have my faithful cheap steel casio watch on my left hand.

I was awoken out of my sleep by the most poignant thunder. Like earth shattering thunder. Funny thing is 3:14 is my birthday backwards and also the most recent address I lived at and the address many years prior to that was 134 Windsor which both included my birthday in some capacity.

You see I turned 13 on a Friday the thirteenth. Ok. At the time I was like cool. But the numbers keep adding up. 11:11, 313 413. So then you get into trying to square the circle which many artists have based their ideology around this concept. Pi starts off with 3.14 and then goes into infinity.  

You can make your own deductions from the facts. But the reality which we all live in is that we have to make this work. If we don't, it is literally the destruction of the universe as everything is nothing and nothing is everything and the key to bind it all together is collaboration and equally as important  both knowledge and curiosity. 

How hard is it to find a diplomatic way to appease all cultures and all religions and ideologies. Unfortunately that won't work as the current constructs and those in power have leveraged there monetary gain from the start and im talking like Rockefeller who baught out supply lines just to insure competitors would fail.   

These mind games are our own traps. We devised them. Some forgot the pass code and others just didn't give a fuck and we're out for the kill.  Whatever boat your heritage was in it was rigged from the start.  

I'm currently living in a city where lawlesness is the societal norm. Oddly amongst these gangsters and gunners as I predicted there are families just trying to live peacefully. Iv met men and women who work damn hard every day because not only do the have to but they want to in order to better themselves and their families and ultimately this world.  Many have come from something so much worse and are grateful for life itself.

Alot of you say you know me but you don't. That's the guise of society currently. Oh yeah I know him, so therefore I am a better man. Society chasing the American pie has constructed a glass house around themselves.

Oh so fucking pretty on the outside.  It's the same in fashion and multitudes of interests. People are so concerned about image. 

How do I look?

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Why don't you actually step by step recollect who and what you are. What amazed you at the age of 3?  

Your human and everything should amaze you as waking up is a gift to me and likewise should be to you. 

Let that sink in. I should be dead many times over but I'm not and I AM GRATEFUL. Beyond GRATEFUL.  

And this life is tough. Beyond tough. But humans over thousands of years have persevered against all odds.  

It is time to wake up and truly begin life as a human. You don't have to do it alone.

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We are all at witts end and now is the time to make comrades with your neighbors. Please network like crazy and see who are your true friends through that. My grand mom always said truth is you will have max 3 to 4 close friends when you are on your death bed. By true friends I mean those who will flip the world for you. 

Go out and let me stress "peacefully"  change the systems that are in place. These are tough times but we are all smart enough to figure out how to get back to where we all belong.  I leave you on the video I edited for Adobe's recent contest editing the footage from imagine Dragons latest single " Believer."

Literally at midnight tonight the top 25 finalists will be announced.  I took the footage  and brought it into my spectrum which is seeing in 360. Albeit my heavy acid usage many years ago I invisioned a world of complete clarity and understanding of my fellow human beings and allowing him or her to exist within there own confines of what we call the world. One might call it a jungle out there. 

Out of difficult situations comes adaptility and we adapt to all situations. That's what we do. If you are stuck in the past I am sorry. Know that everything is cyclical and forever will be moving forward..  So who is to right this wrong?  I can only hope for a miracle. I am a fervent believer in GOD.

You decide. 

God bless and stay awesome!  

If viewing on mobile open the link below in your YouTube app to experience the video in 360.  https://youtu.be/hvnMouwoZnU 

Anthem

Anthem

Out of darkness comes knowledge and out of knowledge comes light and out of teaching comes spreading of the light. As Ayn Rand eloquently expresses in her book Anthem...

It was when I read the first of the books I found in my house that I saw the word "I." And when I understood this word, the book fell from my hands, and I wept, I who had never known tears. I wept in deliverance and in pity for all mankind.

I understood the blessed thing which I had called my curse. I understood why the best in me had been my sins and my transgressions; and why I had never felt guilt in my sins. I understood that centuries of chains and lashes will not kill the spirit of man nor the sense of truth within him.

I read many books for many days. Then I called the Golden One, and I told her what I had read and what I had learned. She looked at me and the first words she spoke were:

"I love you."

Then I said:

"My dearest one, it is not proper for men to be without names. There was a time when each man had a name of his own to distinguish him from all other men. So let us choose our names. I have read of a man who lived many thousands of years ago, and of all the names in these books, his is the one I wish to bear. He took the light of the gods and he brought it to men, and he taught men to be gods. And he suffered for his deed as all bearers of light must suffer. His name was Prometheus."

"It shall be your name," said the Golden One.

"And I have read of a goddess," I said, "who was the mother of the earth and of all the gods. Her name was Gaea. Let this be your name, my Golden One, for you are to be the mother of a new kind of gods."

"It shall be my name," said the Golden One.

Now I look ahead. My future is clear before me. The Saint of the pyre had seen the future when he chose me as his heir, as the heir of all the saints and all the martyrs who came before him and who died for the same cause, for the same word, no matter what name they gave to their cause and their truth.

I shall live here, in my own house. I shall take my food from the earth by the toil of my own hands. I shall learn many secrets from my books. Through the years ahead, I shall rebuild the achievements of the past, and open the way to carry them further, the achievements which are open to me, but closed forever to my brothers, for their minds are shackled to the weakest and dullest ones among them.

I have learned that my power of the sky was known to men long ago; they called it Electricity. It was the power that moved their greatest inventions. It lit this house with light which came from those globes of glass on the walls. I have found the engine which produced this light. I shall learn how to repair it and how to make it work again. I shall learn how to use the wires which carry this power. Then I shall build a barrier of wires around my home, and across the paths which lead to my home; a barrier light as a cobweb, more impassable than a wall of granite; a barrier my brothers will never be able to cross. For they have nothing to fight me with, save the brute force of their numbers. 

I HAVE MY MIND.

Are You a Believer?

Check out this 360 video I edited of the band Imagine Dragons for the Adobe Make the Cut Contest. Be sure to view in the YouTube app if you are on a mobile device or optimally on a desktop computer to navigate and view in 360.

 

First things first
I'ma say all the words inside my head
I'm fired up and tired of the way that things have been, oh ooh
The way that things have been, oh ooh
Second thing
Second, don't you tell me what you think that I can be
I'm the one at the sail, I'm the master of my sea, oh ooh
The master of my sea, oh ooh

I was broken from a young age
Taking my soul into the masses
Write down my poems for the few
That looked at me took to me, shook to me, feeling me
Singing from heart ache from the pain
Take up my message from the veins
Speaking my lesson from the brain
Seeing the beauty through the

You made me a, you made me a believer, believer
(Pain, pain)
You break me down, you build me up, believer, believer
(Pain)
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain
My luck, my love, my God, they came from
(Pain)
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Third things third
Send a prayer to the ones up above
All the hate that you've heard has turned your spirit to a dove, oh ooh
Your spirit up above, oh ooh

I was choking in the crowd
Living my brain up in the cloud
Falling like ashes to the ground
Hoping my feelings, they would drown
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like

You made me a, you made me a believer, believer
(Pain, pain)
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer
(Pain)
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain
My luck, my love, my God, they came from
(Pain)
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

Last things last
By the grace of the fire and the flames
You're the face of the future, the blood in my veins, oh ooh
The blood in my veins, oh ooh
But they never did, ever lived, ebbing and flowing
Inhibited, limited
Till it broke up and it rained down
It rained down, like

You made me a, you made me a believer, believer
(Pain, pain)
You break me down, you built me up, believer, believer
(Pain)
I let the bullets fly, oh let them rain
My luck, my love, my God, they came from
(Pain)
You made me a, you made me a believer, believer

I Am Who I Am Across America

I Am Who I Am Across America

www.gofundme.com/IAMWHOIAMAMERICA

We live in such a divided world. I don’t view the world as black or white or 1's and 0's I view it on a spectrum in a circle.  Light to Dark with perfect grey being the perfect balance. Life is all about balance.

Anyway, Thursday April 13th will be my 29th birthday 3 days before Easter. I turned 13 on a Friday the 13th, you could say my entire life up until this point has been unlucky. Some of that was self imposed. I am currently unable to pay my rent so I must move into my car by the 20th.

I will be going to school at Penn State Main come fall for Quantum Physics and Biomolecular engineering with hopes of interfacing quantum computers to our brains and in doing so changing the world at quantum speeds. I have struggled with addiction my entire life and had a 8 month run with heroin over 10 years ago when I was 19. Honestly addiction is decimating our culture and species. If nothing is done the disease of addiction might be an epidemic that kills off the human race way faster than all the other worries we have going on in the world.

Fact is the US is the number one consumer of opioids and Russia is one of the biggest exporters. Russia also is struggling with a severe opioid epidemic. We are all human.  I personally know this pain and my addictions have hurt my body and my family immensely but I regret none of it as those actions are the basis for the man I am today. 

Without my past I would not have been able to overcome deep seeded self-shame and lack of self-love issues I suffered from for a lifetime. I finally have come full circle and have nowhere to go but up now. I am ready to utilize the knowledge I gained throughout my heavy hallucinogenic,dissociative, and opioid  usage over the past ten years and make lemonade out of lemons.  I hope to be a glimmer of hope for someone somewhere. When I isolated myself I only had those very few special people who believed in me in my head. I can only hope that the story I share over the coming weeks can be a beacon of light for those who are lost. Truth is all that wander are not lost. They might just be orientating. I found my true north finally and now it's time to head home.

Furthermore, I never would wish on anyone else what I put on myself and my family and friends. The pain I self-inflicted persevering after that feather in the wind for an answer. Family is everything we have and I love my family greatly and I am sorry for hurting myself so much to find the answer but now is a time of change through growth and accountability. 

 My intentions are to use my past experiences in conjunction with my future education at Penn State Main in Quantum Physics and Bio Molecular Engineering as a jumping point. As mentioned, I hope to create a device and a way to interface electronically with the brain negating addictive opioid impulses. I think this is very within the realm of current technology that is out there.

This all sounds like a lot and I am far from perfect but I have a good heart that wants nothing more than to help others. As I have tattooed up my left side. A quote from the last three lines of Henry David Thoreou's Walden “Only that day dawns to which we are awake, the sun is but a morning star. There is more day to dawn.”

I firmly believe that whatever innovations myself and other pioneers do will lead to a future of peace through the melding of science, spirituality and Love.

Secondly tattooed up my right side as a quote from my friend Dale Scott Marion.

"There is no uncertainty in success, if there is you can be certain it won’t be a success.”

That’s how I live my life.

 So, with all that said I’m like damn what do I do until Fall when college starts. Travel and make good out of a bad situation is what I will do. This is what makes our species so great. The ability to adapt and grow under the harshest circumstances.

I believe we are at a pivitol moment in history. A point of no return and we have two path. We can take the path that is familiar and repeat all our mistakes over and over again as in the myth of Sisyphus ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sisyphus) or we can march on into the unknown and adapt and grow. We wont know if we dont try. The time is now and we are on the cusp of a paradigm shift ( https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paradigm_shift ). Now we just need to take the actions and lay the groundwork for a brighter and better future. Many pioneers and giants among us have been fighting the uphill battle for so long and I look up to and humbly thank all of them for their courage and perserverance against all odds.

Speaking of  the here and now I think we need to be reminded of how beautiful our world is. As a photographer I strived to find the essence of what I captured in hopes of sharing it with others and making their day brighter.  

I'v iv been avidly shooting since I was 15 years old. My passion is art. I recently moved back to Pennsylvania after living in NYC for a few years working as the First Assistant and Digital Technician for a Very talented Vogue and Harpers Bazaar Photographer; Hao Zeng.

America has so much beautiful landscape and nature all within one country.  Iv never traveled further west than Erie, Pennsylvania so I want to drive cross country documenting Americas beauty as I go and bringing awareness to the Opioid Addiction that is decemating our country and our world through my writing. I'll be driving from the east coast to the west coast stopping in Sedona, Arizona and driving back to NYC all while documenting the beauty of America in real time editing on a hot spot enabled laptop and Ipad Pro in both 360 Google Street View,  360 filming, traditional photography and traditional filming. I will be living out of my car and a tent when applicable getting back to mother nature and once again reminding myself and us how great the outdoors are.

Sedona, Arizona is from what I hear a magical place and I am drawn to it as of recently. They say it is where the masculine and feminine electromagnetic waves enter the earth colliding as one duality. 

Take this into modern culture and we have these ideals of what masculinity is. Unfortunately, the world has been given a false prophet of what masculinity should be. A true man is accountable for all his actions and does not need money or prestige to impress good feelings on others. You make a mistake, don’t shame it, learn from it and grow. 

Shame has been my shadow for way too long. Only upon recognizing and categorizing all that I put myself through with drug abuse trying to mask my true self from the world was I able to see past the veil of life. I regret none of my mistakes through this “disease” of addiction for I had to see the lowest of lows of our existence in order to find a point in space as a starting point. When you’re in a hole the only way out is up. 

Next I had to find another point to make the first point relative in order to align my compass.  That came in the form of getting down on my knees and throwing my arms up into the air praying to God. I am yours. You are mine and utilize me as you will for the greater good allowing me to live as a beacon of light in ministry shining on to the world. That my friend is having faith in the darkest hour before dawn.

That’s what I had to do. Take the fall then build myself back up piece by piece like a puzzle to prove that faith in one god is a very real thing to myself first and foremost. Now I can help those around me.

Opioids are decimating western and Russian Culture and we need to destroy their sources and rid this world of its plague. I have a friend who iv know since daycare; Jon Cleaver who a year after his father took his own life died of a heroin overdose. Jon went to school at Penn State for Quantum physics and I remember sitting in his room as an early 20 something as he described string theory to me while the original cartoon Alice in the Wonderland just started playing on a computer in the background. It was beyond time and space. This drug and all those associated with it need to be held accountable for their actions. This is not a war I will fight but it has to be done and hopefully it may be the last war of our world.

We cannot go on as a species doing what where doing. It will be our Armageddon. People need to own up on their slimy back door deals and realize that we are all one, brothers and sisters mothers and fathers etc and the binding force between us is compassion and love.

So I say to you today I Am who I Am and I love me and in turn love my father God. If we all practice this we will all be one. Love yourself first and create a base to launch that intergalactic space shuttle of love. Be a light to the world by example.

As a kid my Grandmother Elfy showed me books of firemen and astronauts and I distinctly remember pointing at the Space Man and saying I want to be him. 

We can be both a Space Man and a Earth Man figuratively and literally.  If we keep our minds and hearts open we can find a balance between the heavens and earth. I have.

I am all for space exploration and have goals of someday working at NASA or wherever my studies and life takes me.

Truth is with love we all are one and we help each other out and at the end of the day I want a world where I can lie my child down to sleep and know that everything is going to be alright and that their future is brighter than ever. Crystalized as a trinity across the universe as Orions belt shines so brightly.

Thank you to all who have helped me get back on my feet. History will write your names as the ten thousand hands that held me up.

We are Living in another renaissance. The time is now to start your dreams. Go to school. Go to gymnastics, wrestling. Paint that dandelion. Love is art, art is love. We are the creators of our universe. Everyone is equal regardless of sexual orientation, race, religion, color etc.…. we are all human and I ask you please help me help you. Thank you and I hope we can build the beautiful world we all deserve. It will be done.

I am who I am and you also are your own. 

The World is your Oyster.

In conclusion, this gofundme account will get me to Sedona, Arizona living out of my car and in a tent at camp sites all while recording the landscape through traditional photography, filming and 360/VR Photography. My words via social media will encompass my past experience with opioids and how I made it out of their vice like grasp bringing a positive spin to that there is a light attainable at the end of that tunnel.

I would be immensely grateful of any and all donations  promoting to ensure I have money for food and gas as well as emergency money if say a tire blew out or something. I look forward to leaving on my trip come May 1st once I have all plans and backup plans in order. Of course there is the funding aspect of things but I have faith God will provide for me until I can get into school come fall at Penn State. Any Excess donations past two thousand will go towards my tuition at Penn State. Money past my Tuition hypothetically if we reach that much then will be allocated to starting a non profit under these same ideals and ideas.

Thank you all and god bless. To Donate, click below.

www.gofundme.com/IAMWHOIAMAMERICA

For more information and to view some of my photography visit my website at

www.shawnrutkowski.com

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www.instagram.com/shawnrutkowski

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2016 - 2017

2016 - 2017

2016
The highs,
The lows,
The ebbs and
The flows,
Make what you want from it
But it has to go.
2017
Lets conquer fear.
New ideas are here, lets ignite,
For we have made it past the darkest part of night.
Now my brothers and sisters its time to take flight.
Xo

The Fall.

The Fall.

If your partial to the night sky, If your vaguely attracted to rooftops.

You will never know if you don't try. The worst that could happen is you trip and fall.

Like a boomerang of perseverance, sometimes in life you fall so far in the pursuit of happiness that you end up falling back in love with yourself.

And that my friend is day one of finally being able to love everyone else genuinely.

I fell into myself intentionally . To the outsider it looked like masochism or martyrdom. To me I was really only testing my strength before I flew out of the bird cage.

As a society we have devised mindgames and labels to quantify how big the world really is and in doing so we imprisoned ourselves.

The funny thing is the bird cage door was always open. I just had to fly through it and my god is it beautiful on the other side.

I am so grateful for every moment of my past, my future and most importantly now. Thank you for everything.

Fly Bird, Fly.

I had the pleasure of touring with the nationally acclaimed jam band FLUX CAPACITOR for a few days recently. These are some of my favorite images documenting the experience. I hope you enjoy them as much as I enjoyed taking them.

Life is Unscripted.

For optimal experience kindly play this song while viewing.

Step up from behind the SHADOWS

No ONE should live undercover.

No ONE is above the other.

Freedom is a gift for everyone.

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In December of your empty soul. Blazed and open bullet hole. You must patch it up before you grow too old. Life is a prize greater then gold.

 

Model: Eileen Eryn

Justin Bortz Jewelers

I am who I am.

My first art showing featuring Mike Specht from Flux Capacitors first solo music show in his hometown. 50% of Ticket sales will directly help the disadvantaged of Reading, Pennsylvania via Cups of Compassion. Tickets $20 at the door with 50% buying supplies for the homeless. 1 Free Drink with purchase. Beer and Wine. Art for Sale and awesome music!

Click here for more Info.

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Been busy chasing my dreams. Proud to announce the next step in my life helping take businesses to the next level with Virtual Reality Marketing. Stay tuned for more details!

Dog Portraiture Special

Dog Portraiture Special

 $125 for a 1 hour, 10 different high res image photo session. Call 610.621.6997 or email Me@shawnrutkowski.com today!

Homeward Bound

Amazing weekend shooting in Philly.